18.6.10
Call me Crazy but...
No actually you can just call me crazy. Fuck all this writing to please ppl, I'm going to write what I feel right now at this moment. And at this moment I feel absolutely nuts. I felt all day a sort of impending doom, then at 3AM called my dad to pick me up from my friends house and bring me home cuz I was sad. I just felt so alone, and I guess I'd rather be alone with my cat and my stuffed animals. Maybe it was cuz moths flew in, maybe it was cuz my ankle hurt, maybe it's cuz I'm not quite over my attempted suicide of Sunday night. I try to brush stuff aside but I guess it can't be brushed. This empty feeling is stuck here. I hate falling asleep alone. I need someone awake with me for me to sleep well. If this is due to spoiling from Michael I don't know, but all I know now is that I can't cope. Insomnia isn't pretty, especially when it depresses me to extreme extents. I just want to be in his arms. Maybe I sound needy and clingy but wtf I am. So it goes. All I know is that everything feels like it's in a dark hole right now and I just need to chill. I am confining myself to my house until next Tuesday when I will emerge for a dance supper, until then I am here. I think that is best. I need to chill and relax and think.
7.6.10
Like Ducks.
So me being the animal lover that I am, I decided to pay a visit to the duckpond down my road today. I brought bread for the little duckies (yes, I know that bread isn't great for ducks, it's as healthy for ducks as junk food is for humans, but everyone deserves a treat once in awhile, yes?) So anyways, I started throwing little bits of bread to the ducks, and all the white ones waggled their little duck bums over, but the mallards and the spotted brown ones stayed where they were. I thought it was a little weird, but I continued feeding the hungry whiteys. When they were done feasting they started to swim back to their shady little spot under a tree. But much to their surprise the coloured ducks had claimed that are for their own. Enraged, the white ducks began flapping their wings and quacking loudly and swimming towards the coloured ducks angrily. The coloured ducks fled, quacking in fear. The white ducks then surrounded one little brown duck, splashing him and nipping his bum. The poor guy kept trying to fly back to his coloured comrades, but they were already halfway across the pond.
This continued for awhile, and finally peace was established with the two duck clans at opposite ends of the pond. I thought that this was quite an interesting happening, I assume that the clash was due to the fact that the white ducks were considerably bigger than the coloured ducks, and they were clearly bullies.
The fact that this is the most exciting part of my day is pretty sad. I need a life, yes? But I do like ducks. I would buy a duck as a pet if I could.
This continued for awhile, and finally peace was established with the two duck clans at opposite ends of the pond. I thought that this was quite an interesting happening, I assume that the clash was due to the fact that the white ducks were considerably bigger than the coloured ducks, and they were clearly bullies.
The fact that this is the most exciting part of my day is pretty sad. I need a life, yes? But I do like ducks. I would buy a duck as a pet if I could.
16.5.10
The Emptiness will Haunt you
Yo dawgs.
Left my laptop cord at the community center, so was laptop-less for a week. Pretty effing brutal. But I have it now so I am so flipping happy! I am currently sitting outside in the beautiful sunshine blogging. Could life get much better? ++ listening to Alesana <3
So yesterday I went DT to Underworld to see my friend Adam play a show. His band, A Hopeless Lie was super good. I enjoyed them mucho. Plus it gave me a reason to wear colourful skinny jeans, a hoodie, and crazy scene kid makeup, all things which I adore. I missed being part of the underworld / hardcore scene. Tee hee.
My fingers are almost healed. Which is great. I'll be able to do my driving test again =]
hopesfully it won't be as much of an epic fail. Meaning I'll pass. Fingers crossed.
Ughh I wanna cut my hair. I miss my bangs. And my blondeness. I have a feeling I'll give in and do some kook stuff to it. Stay tuned.
Left my laptop cord at the community center, so was laptop-less for a week. Pretty effing brutal. But I have it now so I am so flipping happy! I am currently sitting outside in the beautiful sunshine blogging. Could life get much better? ++ listening to Alesana <3
So yesterday I went DT to Underworld to see my friend Adam play a show. His band, A Hopeless Lie was super good. I enjoyed them mucho. Plus it gave me a reason to wear colourful skinny jeans, a hoodie, and crazy scene kid makeup, all things which I adore. I missed being part of the underworld / hardcore scene. Tee hee.
My fingers are almost healed. Which is great. I'll be able to do my driving test again =]
hopesfully it won't be as much of an epic fail. Meaning I'll pass. Fingers crossed.
Ughh I wanna cut my hair. I miss my bangs. And my blondeness. I have a feeling I'll give in and do some kook stuff to it. Stay tuned.
8.5.10
I'm Such a Hairy Guy
Hey kookerzzz!
Long time no blogger. I've decided to have a hair night tonight. I want to try out some hairstyles on my hair. I'm planning on trying a BIG hairstyle from the 80s, like really tease it and make it fab. I also want to do a bow made of hair on top of my head, a la Lady GaGa <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjktyI9VsX7mATAfW7QEFJUYJRoq4XUwt3Hny_WaUn6E80Hyr0wLcE9XB3xRtUv38T82CLkSPfK60ynzlf9skA-IHmv3xhgbfBZOYWzAB-0tvTqlMQ6fYf2iFto4pZmvbZRPOFROLk0LzI/s1600/hello-kitty-lady-gaga.jpg">
We'll see how it goes, I'll take pictures and make a huge picture post after.
I went MAC crazy a few days ago, not gonna lie. I bought gorg bronzer, blush, and some lipstick and gloss. I achieved the perfect nude lip. I will post pics with that too. Photoshoot tonight? Definite possibility ;)
anyways i must go and teach kiddies :] peace moo cows.
Long time no blogger. I've decided to have a hair night tonight. I want to try out some hairstyles on my hair. I'm planning on trying a BIG hairstyle from the 80s, like really tease it and make it fab. I also want to do a bow made of hair on top of my head, a la Lady GaGa <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjktyI9VsX7mATAfW7QEFJUYJRoq4XUwt3Hny_WaUn6E80Hyr0wLcE9XB3xRtUv38T82CLkSPfK60ynzlf9skA-IHmv3xhgbfBZOYWzAB-0tvTqlMQ6fYf2iFto4pZmvbZRPOFROLk0LzI/s1600/hello-kitty-lady-gaga.jpg">
We'll see how it goes, I'll take pictures and make a huge picture post after.
I went MAC crazy a few days ago, not gonna lie. I bought gorg bronzer, blush, and some lipstick and gloss. I achieved the perfect nude lip. I will post pics with that too. Photoshoot tonight? Definite possibility ;)
anyways i must go and teach kiddies :] peace moo cows.
22.4.10
This is Noise
Years and years since I've last posted. Or something like that. I have two days till my dance show. I am so excited/nervous. I want to do really well and be amazing and wow everyone and earn myself a spot in senior. One can only hope. If I don't get in, so it goes. I mean, Sharon knows what she's doing and she knows if I'm ready or not. And if I get in or not, I still love dancing and it will still be super fun.
So the other day (yesterday) I read on Perez Hilton's fashion blog, Coco Perez, that Taylor Momsen apparently told all her fans to stop dressing like her and to have their own style, that people were copying her hair, makeup etc. See Perez's story here. In my personal opinion, I think this is kinda self-centered and silly. I mean, the whole bleach blonde, eyeliner, edgy style is all part of Momsen's style from Gossip Girl, her character Jenny Humphrey dresses that way, so isn't Taylor gathering her inspiration from the character? I mean I hardcore dig all of Miss Jennifer's outfits in the show, but aren't there wardrobe people that give her those clothes? So it's not like Miss Momsen had these great, unique, and intense ideas for clothing all on her own either. She's kind of taking credit for a personal style that isn't really hers.
Those are some super hot pics of her badass look. But lest we forget her original Gossip Girl look, she doesn't seem to be taking any credit for that cutesy "Little J" attire...
Not that it's a bad look... Just a hell of a lot different. Don't ever forget your roots :]
Enough of my Gossip Girl obsession, for now.
You know you love me, xoxo, Beans
So the other day (yesterday) I read on Perez Hilton's fashion blog, Coco Perez, that Taylor Momsen apparently told all her fans to stop dressing like her and to have their own style, that people were copying her hair, makeup etc. See Perez's story here. In my personal opinion, I think this is kinda self-centered and silly. I mean, the whole bleach blonde, eyeliner, edgy style is all part of Momsen's style from Gossip Girl, her character Jenny Humphrey dresses that way, so isn't Taylor gathering her inspiration from the character? I mean I hardcore dig all of Miss Jennifer's outfits in the show, but aren't there wardrobe people that give her those clothes? So it's not like Miss Momsen had these great, unique, and intense ideas for clothing all on her own either. She's kind of taking credit for a personal style that isn't really hers.
Those are some super hot pics of her badass look. But lest we forget her original Gossip Girl look, she doesn't seem to be taking any credit for that cutesy "Little J" attire...
Not that it's a bad look... Just a hell of a lot different. Don't ever forget your roots :]Enough of my Gossip Girl obsession, for now.
You know you love me, xoxo, Beans
9.4.10
Leather-Studded Kiss
Bien la.
GaGa ♥. I am listening to her. Mmmm.
So yesterday I went to dance, and my lovely dance teacher Sharon got one of those multi-tying dresses. You know, the ones that you can tie like 25 different ways... Most popular ones are probably from American Apparel.. But anywaysss, that got me thinking, I don't have a plain jersey summer dress. When you're at a loss for what to wear cuz it's just to stinking hot, they are so handy. And if you get one that you can tie many different ways, you don't get bored too quickly. But, since they are so often just a plain colour, you need to do something to add a splash of colour. Or at least I do, because plain is not me. Whatsoever. Normally I would say pile on the accessories baby, but if you're wearing it cuz it's too hot, you wouldn't want three heavy necklaces on anyway. So I'm in a bit of a conundrum. I'm thinking of investing in some wooden beaded bracelets, or hemp braided bracelets, because they're not insanely hot. And crazy cool sunglasses obviously. It doesn't sound like much of an inspired outfit to me though, any ideas on how to spice it up that wouldn't make one fry? Summer fashion is difficult that way, I mean, there are many great pieces, but sometimes you're just too sweltering to make cute outfits, you'd rather throw on shorts, a tank top, and flip flops. I vow to try to not to fall into a fashion rut this summer.
Oh gish, at work today there was a mass rushcat and I felt as if like the Subway spirit overtook me, and I worked like a fool, making sandwiches like a pro. It was pretty intense. As far as Subway sandwiches go. Hehe.
I am having a date night tonight with my boyfriend, we are going to see movies and eat and love. I am excited, we haven't been on a non-bar, two-person date in a long time. I'm hoping to wear a very pretty ensemble as well. :]
I need to get a notebook or something beside my bed, I always think of interesting things to write at night, and I'm like, 'OH! I should blog about that!" But then the next day, the thoughts are gone, poof. So it goes. Point being, if I had a notebook I could write down said revelations.
HELLO MONK!
andbythatimeanbye.
GaGa ♥. I am listening to her. Mmmm.
So yesterday I went to dance, and my lovely dance teacher Sharon got one of those multi-tying dresses. You know, the ones that you can tie like 25 different ways... Most popular ones are probably from American Apparel.. But anywaysss, that got me thinking, I don't have a plain jersey summer dress. When you're at a loss for what to wear cuz it's just to stinking hot, they are so handy. And if you get one that you can tie many different ways, you don't get bored too quickly. But, since they are so often just a plain colour, you need to do something to add a splash of colour. Or at least I do, because plain is not me. Whatsoever. Normally I would say pile on the accessories baby, but if you're wearing it cuz it's too hot, you wouldn't want three heavy necklaces on anyway. So I'm in a bit of a conundrum. I'm thinking of investing in some wooden beaded bracelets, or hemp braided bracelets, because they're not insanely hot. And crazy cool sunglasses obviously. It doesn't sound like much of an inspired outfit to me though, any ideas on how to spice it up that wouldn't make one fry? Summer fashion is difficult that way, I mean, there are many great pieces, but sometimes you're just too sweltering to make cute outfits, you'd rather throw on shorts, a tank top, and flip flops. I vow to try to not to fall into a fashion rut this summer.
Oh gish, at work today there was a mass rushcat and I felt as if like the Subway spirit overtook me, and I worked like a fool, making sandwiches like a pro. It was pretty intense. As far as Subway sandwiches go. Hehe.
I am having a date night tonight with my boyfriend, we are going to see movies and eat and love. I am excited, we haven't been on a non-bar, two-person date in a long time. I'm hoping to wear a very pretty ensemble as well. :]
I need to get a notebook or something beside my bed, I always think of interesting things to write at night, and I'm like, 'OH! I should blog about that!" But then the next day, the thoughts are gone, poof. So it goes. Point being, if I had a notebook I could write down said revelations.
HELLO MONK!
andbythatimeanbye.
1.4.10
Vintage Treasure
Oh yoginis unite.
We did this massive bullshit knee job in yoga today that consisted of rolling a wooden stick through our knee joints to "open them". It was horribly painful. And I have a bad knee to begin with. It started in a moshing accident. Oh Chiodos ♥ What can I say? Craigery tells me to beat the shit out of people and start a circle pit, I can only oblige happily. It resulted in a rather awks fall, which I did nothing to take care of for quite a few months. I got it checked out and I had tore my lateral meniscus, had some bone stabbed into my cartilage, and have something long name itis, which means I have water in my patella or some shit like that. So then I had to get physio and have my knee electrocuted twice a week but it was wicked expenseive so I was like peace i'll wear a brace when it hurts. And i take pills for it. But anyhoo it was not so pleasant in yoga today. Pleasant looks like peasant. I'm debating buying a chill peasant blouse soon, but i have a huge bum, so it might just make me look like a square. Flowy tops were not made for the curvy.
I'm really excited for what I'm wearing tonight, I'm going to take pics and post them, I have a feeling it'll look fab.
Now I must go work.
PAIIIIIIIIIICEEEEEEEEEE HOMMMMMMMMMMMM
We did this massive bullshit knee job in yoga today that consisted of rolling a wooden stick through our knee joints to "open them". It was horribly painful. And I have a bad knee to begin with. It started in a moshing accident. Oh Chiodos ♥ What can I say? Craigery tells me to beat the shit out of people and start a circle pit, I can only oblige happily. It resulted in a rather awks fall, which I did nothing to take care of for quite a few months. I got it checked out and I had tore my lateral meniscus, had some bone stabbed into my cartilage, and have something long name itis, which means I have water in my patella or some shit like that. So then I had to get physio and have my knee electrocuted twice a week but it was wicked expenseive so I was like peace i'll wear a brace when it hurts. And i take pills for it. But anyhoo it was not so pleasant in yoga today. Pleasant looks like peasant. I'm debating buying a chill peasant blouse soon, but i have a huge bum, so it might just make me look like a square. Flowy tops were not made for the curvy.
I'm really excited for what I'm wearing tonight, I'm going to take pics and post them, I have a feeling it'll look fab.
Now I must go work.
PAIIIIIIIIIICEEEEEEEEEE HOMMMMMMMMMMMM
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